Fight The Fear

Most of us don’t view fear in a positive light. Fear is a strong emotion that can be scarring at its worst and at its best is still uncomfortable. Fear is one of the most powerful emotions. It has a very strong effect on your mind and body. I would like to elaborate on this very interesting topic called ‘Fear’.

When I first stepped out of the house after the lockdown, as we at Baggit planned to create protective masks during the COVID19 times. We had so many apprehensions, the cops will catch us, the cops will come to the warehouse which we have opened up. Why are we doing this? Whether our Lal Baug HO would be open soon? Will there be drinking water available? Will the police seize the cars and take them away? Because we were out on the road and we did not have the travel pass which people dealing in essential commodities usually have. There were a million things which were in my mind at that time. There was a mental pressure of keeping my business alive during the pandemic and making sure everyone is safe, and to top it all most of our workers were coming directly from Dharavi (the biggest slum area in Mumbai), the place where the most number of COVID19 cases were found. There were a lot of things that make us feel afraid. Being afraid of some things like a fire – can keep you safe. 

A couple of days later, we had to open up our Bhiwandi warehouse, and also our dispatch as our website orders were on hold during the lockdown. There was so much anxiety in my mind, before stepping out there were these 1-2 entrepreneurs I spoke to who wanted to run their business no matter what, that motivated me. Even after a couple of weeks, I spoke to 4 more entrepreneurs who had just done their bit and taken the courage to step out of the house because it was difficult to run the business just by sitting at home.

While travelling to work, there were these 2 kids in the car, their dad had bought a motorbike for them and they were scared to drive it. I spoke to them and told them that the bike is bought for you’ll and both of you are working so hard all day and you’ll deserve a bike and that’s a very bikeable distance from Shivaji Park to Lal Baug where they go, but they were scared to step out. I explained, that there is always going to be fear in our minds, but when you go out there, you realize that it’s ok, fear and anxiety can last for a short time and then pass, but they can also last much longer and you can get stuck with them.

I always felt that I was the only one feeling so fearful and that’s what I realized when I went out I was surprised to see the number of cars on the road, the number of people travelling, I felt what was I doing all this while, I was just sitting and waiting for the situation to get back to normal. It’s always been my dream to go cycling to work because the distance is not that much. I have cycled from Dadar to NSCI sports club in Haji Ali a lot of times. The first time I tried cycling to the office, I banged into something and injured myself, my right arm was injured badly and it took me about 4-6 days to recover and now I was more scared because I had fallen from the cycle. But I realized that you learn only when you fall, what’s the big deal. Then after 4 days, I went out once more cycling to work and it was so easy and so effortless and now I realized it was just fear. That is all life is about.

Fear can be as much an ally, as it can be an enemy. And the fear of fear can keep you locked in a cage of insecurity. How do you overcome it? You learn to leverage it.